http://www.merch-bot.com/product_info.php?products_id=518
i can’t stand it. i give up. rolling up the carpet. locking the door behind me. moving to a nice quiet cave.
-
-
so, i saved up my monthly retirement checks (a whopping $138) and then i bought a new camera–the Pentax K10d–here it is: http://www.pentaximaging.com/products/product_details/digital_camera–K10D/reqID–8793673/subsection–digital_slr
so for the past 2 days i’ve been playing with my new toy and i love it. here’s a few pictures i’ve taken so far.
i can’t wait til i get good!
-
About dreams, from Holy Fools by Joanne Harris: “They are like waves, she told me, of the tides that bear us, from which strange jetsam may be gathered, strange eddies from the deeps for those to read who can. I must use my dreams, not fear them. Only a fool fears knowledge.”
So last night, my dreams jerked me from sleep, with the heart pounding fear only night terrors can bring. It was a clear, cool summer night. The stars and planets bright, touchable and whirling in in dizzying spirals. Trails and orbits changed into coppery streaks, the heavenly bodies garishly colored, geometric and mechanical. Party noises drifted down from an illuminated house on a hill above us, so brightly lit we could see the shapes of the people as they grew louder and wilder in their revelry. There was something demonic in the rhythm of their calls and shouts, as if they were in the midsts of some climactic ritual.
Then things changed from ceremony to frat-boy antics to murder. Young men were being herded and thrown from the large house, falling from ledge to precipice to slope to ground, some of them screaming as their bones broke against stone. A sickly neon glow outlined the edges of their descent, until finally we were all on the same level.
Night turned quickly into day and what was once woods and soft grass was now cement slabs, corridors and glass doors. Everything was squared. People were running, hiding while others were being toppled and run over by large, steel balls moving at a blinding rate of speed. I skirted the edges of the mayhem, trying to stay out of sight.
Finally, taking my chance, I ran for the glass doors, barely making it before hearing the loud clanging bells. Moving in that oppressive slow motion of nightmares, I grabbed the door and struggled to squeeze through to safety. Looking out, I saw that the door didn’t open to safety, but to a larger cement playing field. The world had turned into a vast pinball game and the balls were racking us up for points.
***
And the night before, I dreamt of a loved one’s betrayal at the hands of friends.
***So, I’m drinking coffee before 6am and writing all this down, thinking that a change in nighttime eating habits may be in order. I’ll be paying close attention though…just in case.
-
so, ok…if you’ve ever wondered what makes the little pointy arrow on your monitor work when you move and click it, go here:
http://www.1-click.jp -
Thought I’d pass this along. A few things to do that will cost you no money and very little effort. Moments really…
Notice from Standing Woman, http://standingwoman.orgGLOBAL RESONANCE EVENTS, Summer/Fall 2007
On July 7, 2007, an estimated 2 billion! people will watch Live Earth concerts being broadcast all over the world to highlight awareness of global warming issues. Live Earth is a 24-hour, 7- continent concert series that will bring together more than 100 music artists on an unprecedented global media architecture covering all media platforms – TV, radio, Internet and wireless channels. See http://www.liveearth.msn.com for more information, and http://www.joinliveearth.org/gore to register a local Live Earth gathering. See also http://www.missionignition.net/hs777 for the esoteric importance of 7/7/7.
On July 17, 2007 at 11:11 Greenwich Mean Time, we are called to amass a union of humans, such as the world has never seen. Loving humans with one intention – to heal our planet and awaken our souls to our true purpose. We will be healing our planet’s energy field, in the same way that Shelley Yates was guided to heal her son when he had drowned. Read her story and the call she brings at http://www.firethegrid.org. Imagine a process of deep connection maturing in the interval between 7/7 and 7/17.
On September 13th, people everywhere, at any time throughout the day, which is the 14th Annual Unity World Day of Prayer, are asked to affirm this prayer:
We are peacemakers, one in the love of God.
With hearts united, we establish harmony and peace
in our lives and in the world.
More details at http://www.worlddayofprayer or 816-524-3550.On September 21st, 2007 thousands of groups and millions of individuals throughout the world will dedicate their prayers, thoughts and actions to 24 hours of global ceasefire and non- violence. This year’s United Nations theme is “peace in our communities”. Also there is a global intention to observe a minute of silence for peace at noon on September 21st 2007. See http://www.idpvigil.com for more information.
RECURRENT GATHERINGS
Sunday evenings, 6 PM PDT/9 PM EDT, now through December 9, 2007, Doulas for Peace teleconference call meditations to “hold the space” for a global evolution in peace consciousness to be birthed, to support all of humanity and the earth in bringing forth a world at peace. The phone number is 1-712-775-7000; the pin is 408488#. If you cannot be on the call, you are invited to join in meditation and prayer from wherever you are, repeating the peace mantras… Peace … Om shanti … Salaam … Shalom … if you desire. For more information, go to http://www.vesselsofpeace.com.
With many blessings and much gratitude,
The web team at http://StandingWomen.org -
because my cousin jay did this and i’m bored as shit, i’m doing it too. please forgive and jay? it’s all your fault.
01. Raised in:
Devon, PA02. Planned baby:
no. in fact, my parents lied and told everyone they eloped in may when they actually were pregnant with me but didn’t get married until july. i was born in february and they said i was full term, but i was only 5 lbs 3 oz, so i just don’t know. none of it makes sense and it’s all shrouded in lies. fine start, eh?03. Birth date:
02/20/195104. Any siblings:
1 sister05. Younger or older?
i’m the old one06. Hair color:
blonde with lovely gray highlights07. Hair length:
long and straight09. Eye color
blue10. Shoe size:
7.511. Mood:
bored and nervous12. Smell:
lavender13. height:
5′ 3.5″ (i gained a half inch after my lumbar fusion surgery. yay!)14. Lefty/righty:
righty, but i practice with my left just in case i should lose my right arm.LOVE LIFE
01. Do you remember your first real relationship:
yes. and it’s an unfortunate memory.
and so was the next one, and the next, et.al.02. Do you believe in love:
what a stupid question. yes, love exists. so does gas, and i believe in that too. it’s what we do with them that makes no sense.03. Why did your last relationship fail:
bad taste. take it any way you want.04. Shortest relationship:
hmmm….hours? less?05. Have you ever been heartbroken:
yes.06: Have you ever fallen for your best friend:
no.08. Have you ever told them:
shhhhhh09. Are you afraid of commitment:
of course not. i mean, not at the moment.10. You ever had a secret admirer:
yes. i even got flowers out of it and then i met him. it was sad and depressing. he had these tiny little hands…ugh… i don’t want to think about it.11. Do you believe in love at first sight:
No.12. Ever been in love:
ever breathe?THIS OR THAT
01. Love or money:
love02. Hard liquor or beer:
please add wine to the list.03. One night stands or relationships:
depends.04. Television or internet:
internet05. Pepsi or coke:
ice tea06. Wild night out or romantic night in:
there’s a difference?07. Colored or black and white pictures:
b&w with a little red for effect.08. Phone or in person:
in person09. Aim or myspace?:
aimHAVE YOU EVER
01. Have you ever been caught sneaking out?:
yes.02. Have you ever skinny dipped?:
i have been skinny dipping, but i quit when i stopped being skinny.03. Have you ever done something you regret?:
are you kidding? i regret everything! (not really)04. Have you ever bungee jumped?:
are you nuts!05. Have you ever been on a house boat?:
no06. Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker?:
i guess…jeez07 Have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt?:
yes.08. Have you ever been streaking?:
no. maybe. don’t remember. probably.09. Have you ever ran away?:
no. i’ve never run away either.10. Have you ever caught your parents doing it:
no. i tried but they’d shoved the dresser in front of the door so i couldn’t get in their room. i’m sure i ruined the moment though.RIGHT NOW
01. Are you missing someone right now?:
my mom.03. Are you talking to anyone right now?:
no04. Are you bored right now?:
hell yes.05. Are you German?:
nein06. Are you Irish?:
no07. Are you French?:
non08. Are you Italian?:
si (75%)09. Are you Norwegian?:
ja (25%)10. Are you Indian?:
na11. Are your parents still married?
no, mom died12. What’s your greatest joy in life?:
art, music, brni, my children, the earth, the moon, the stars13. Do you have a low self esteem?:
oshit…i know i had one of those around here somewhere…under the couch maybe?14. Do you get depressed about things easily?:
i did when i was younger. i don’t have time for depression anymore…uses up too much energy and accomplishes nothing. no, no time for it.15. Do you live life to the fullest?:
sigh. no.16. Are you comfortable with the way you look?:
not really. although i find i look more interesting than i used to. is ok.17. How do you dress?
jeans, tshirts, whatever. who cares?18. Are you scared of growing up old and alone?
ohell, i’m already old. alone? not scared of it, though it would mean i’d be missing my brni.19. What do you want to be when you grow up?
heh.20. Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?:
outdoors21. Favorite seasons:
summer22. Do you like walking in the rain?
no
Croneswood Art 