i waited with great expectation for the cicadas to arrive, but they failed to grace berwyn with their presence. moogie did his best to irradicate them in baltimore as my first son told me. i heard they held a concert down the road in phoenixville.
and so, when i went outside to smoke my last cigarette for the night, i was gladdened and amazed to hear them singing down in the gulley.
i guess they were busy elsewhere
til tonight
ohappyday
ohappynight
myheartwarms
myomy…the joe show was more than i could have hoped for. he yelled, he growled, he railed, he laughed, he empathized, he sympathized, he chastized. it was….the all joe show in all joe’s glory.
he wanted to talk about, “the two of us” (him and all of us). he likened our coming together 2 years ago on this day to a marriage. and the metaphor went on in all it’s overdone banality. and he went on to analyze this marriage…analyze his role and our role.
well, not exactly. he lauded his role, his vision, his insight. he described himself as an “intellectual instigator,” and he scolded us for being short-sighted backstabbers unwilling to embrace change. he publically chastized one staff member by name…referring to the particular incident not just once but twice.
and then, i forget in reference to what, he said, “i want to be like john edwards.”
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getting ready for the all staff meeting to [celebrate] the 2nd anniversary of our director. the past year has been so full of division and discord that to sit and listen for an hour (or more) to this man wax poetic, streaming his conscious all over our already salted wounds is going to take mega doses of rescue remedy.
so, thinking abt all the stuff that i’m investigating. getting into herbalism. start is slow. wanting to learn but not finding it easy to hook up with a reputable school that i can afford. i want to get involved with susun weed, but not finding the time/money/courage to hike on up to woodstock and offer myself up.
but i will. i just need to clear away all the cobwebs.
do i also want to enroll in a correspondence school for herbalism? cheapest place i found was 5k for a full course in master of herbalism. haven’t been able to find out any independent info on how reputable they are. if anyone out there knows anything abt the clayton college of natural health, give me a clue.
i am taking a weed course in spirit and practice of healing. lots of interesting stuff to build intuitiveness which for me is scary business. but wholly necessary for me to break out of my too linear scientific cause/effect frame of reference. need to build those magical muscles.
so, i bought a couple books on tarot and a couple decks…one to practice and one for beauty.
practicing reiki on myself everyday, but would love to practice on others more. guess i need to go looking for those others.
work is bad. missing boss is found. his very presence has made the atmosphere in the library most oppressive. i actually was brought to tears today. spent half the day trying to loosen my tightened chest. my life in that library is definitely limited. but that means way less money to live on. what to do? what is responsible? what is healthy? will eliminating the negative energy of my job be worth the loss of income?
odear. fear of poverty. but ogoddess…the thought of freedom is so fuckin appealing.
sometimes friends are annoying.
normally, on saturday night we go to our local sushi restaurant. it’s a small unpretentious place with excellent food. they recognize my voice on the phone when i call for reservations. but our friends said they were thinking of inviting us all over for sushi at their house and would call us when they got home around 4:30. so 5:30 happens and no phone call. so we call. no answer. call again. no answer. we decide they’ve gotten held up and since we’re really hungry, we go to the hana.
i love having a quiet dinner out w/brni. warm saki, cold sashimi and a bowl of green tea ice cream to share.
sometime around 6:30 our friends left a msg that they were finally home and told us to come on over. so we bought another bottle of saki and headed on out.
conversation wound around to fahrenheit 9/11 and one of our friends told us that ray bradbury was upset and thinking of suing michael moore for copyright infringement for using the word fahrenheit in the title. i stated that copyright law doesn’t protect titles. copyright law protects intellectual property…it protects fixed works not titles, facts or ideas. our friend took exception to this and when i tried to explain he said, “you don’t know.” i said i do know and he got very huffy and loudly exclaimed that i didn’t know anything.
in my previous life as a doormat i would have backed down, but not this life. in this life, i refuse to be bullied. so i explained that i do indeed know since i’m one of the point people in the library who deals with copyright issues.
and then i explained how things work. and when i was done he changed the subject.
i let him keep his flaccid hold on his honor and ate a grape.
so, it appears that the deck railing out back is the millipede mating grounds of berwyn. looking forward to a population explosion in the basement.
at least they’re quiet about it.
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